When I was a little girl, I used to feel adventurous and breathe in all the fresh possibilities and opportunities that lay ahead of me. When I was 8 years old I was misdiagnosed with an anxiety disorder that turned out to be an autoimmune disease. But the options and endless possibilities were still there. I felt them in the air at the airport, the fresh cool scent of the fall and winter, when the leaves thin out enough that you can more easily hike through the forest paths. The feeling when I look up at the sky at any time of the day or night and realize how big the world truly is. The possibilities still feel endless. I'm still a restless adventurer full of wanderlust, but now the daydreams include my husband, my children, and the baggage of autoimmune disease. Every day I still feel the potential, even though I know it's harder to achieve with boundless fatigue. I'm thankful that my husband can see that adventure and potential when he looks in my eyes. He sees through my issues, and I love him for it.
Now if I can just do what I need to do- regularly exercise, stop eating dessert and huge portions of fatty and calorie-dense foods, take my multivitamin and vitamin d, and get plenty of sleep at night, as well as taking my np thyroid every morning. I don't even know exactly how it's going to affect me. But I'm trying to trust God.
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